Death-Bed Dreams ☆---《150803》---☆

Death-Bed Dreams

☆---《150803》---☆

Sitting on the thick-hard armchair

Soft bright lightened poems born

Papers would have not spared space
but I opted laptop to phone to write

Cleared the spellings and usage

Backspace overused unsatisfied

Floor cleaner smelled the hospital

Thin light in rooms gave a gloom

Eye-lids closed and opened as the

Clicks of the clock stepped by step

Days on days passes as life turned

All that was in blooms had its fall

Burning death fear awakened me

Until the dark night gave way to sun

Staring at the floor pattern I drew

Dream of life to death in idle alone

Cramped hands unable to move

Gave no key-board option to write

Waited someone to pen my words

Who loves to read my poems alone?

All alone these days I stayed in room

Old fan made my room not in silence

Tongue made no food request as ever

Belly flame asked to flame the stove

Fever is in and it tried brushing out

The chill body became uneven hot

Perfect I must stay ahead for show

Class must go on else I will be alone

Illness and pain is not the issue

How and why I am around useless

The days ahead too is waste of time

Let my story be ended soon for good

Fever fix in me with chest heavy

Dried lips offering lightest thoughts

The soft one that gave cold against

The heated skin around the neck

It's me filled on this chair on laptop

My dream and my poem unearthed

I need space to end before it started

It must live for my dream students

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LIFE - you left me ? --------(150802)-------

LIFE - you left me ?
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LIFE, I love you, I know
you love me too

You were hot when I got you
Now, I stay cold coward without you

My dear I strived to make you good
I cared you with opinions of all

You in me was interwoven
Shown your existence in me

I took no strange move
I flew like a river - grew like a tree

Made no noise on you
No complaints on you

I kept you safe unfelt
Now why you left me cold?

I stay all lost in dark emptiness
I see the fake smile covered in grief
When people spoke on me and you
I know they don’t know how we were
The bondage and how we separated
They blamed me not caring you
They spoke of your style spoiling me
They are ignorant on our bondage
All around saw us different
As I was with you I missed seeing
Same you as one inside me too
I wish I know the truth on you fully
Now I lock you in my heart
I wish I had you inseparable

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My Malak to KALAM, the Malak ---------------(150729)---------------

My Malak to KALAM, the Malak

---------------(150729)---------------

The speaker teacher fell on stage

What a great death, Kalam sir left us

Endless parade for the past supreme
Quotes painted face flew endless on FB

Laughing children took his soul in heart

Drafted a line to share grief in his style

Kalam hair style with spikes down

Smile to all; cloudy gaze, down face

Passion speaker interacted informal

All had pleasure on his lucid talk

Had always something innovated

Was swift in speech as was he walked

Grinned in laugh on small and big

Chained all in one; art, science, music,

Space, Pokran underground, Assembly, 

President’s abode, home in Rameswar

Such a president never known before

Who made a garden love as a child?

Only he knew the pleasure with kids

Shared views in UN as to his students

Educating was in blood, loved being 

Not as scientist-president-speaker

But just as a teacher entangling kids

As student watched in quest to learn

India taught the world as how and what 

Scientist is to president as he is

Introduced Indian Muslim vegetarian 

Playing veena and quoting Sanskrit

He left behind many lines of dreams

Visions and many visionaries to carry

Left no place unvisited, untiring travel

Lifted up morale of all - now a dream

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Another one like me young ----- ((150709)) -----

Another one like me young

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An innocent boy grown as old man 

Memories of honey is less in stock

Had no Guardian who guarded any time

Entangled life in troubles and no fun

Never realized any love nor care

Gone with time as driven by life

Got coped with days as it passed by

Missed nothing as had not had hopes

Felt at times for a company for care

Wanted time to go ahead to grow fast

Felt that life doesn't had a role in life

Lives as one has taken birth normal

Haven't learn philosophy of life

I know philosophy makes life tough

Felt never fun nor seriousness any

I lost my father and sister while young

But then had never mourned on death

I knew not value nor loss on death

When they died I was four as child

Now after forty-four years it is a story

I got young charm back now in me

Life gladdened as years walked on me

Lived around this wide world over

Found no charm as that I had as child

I would have a boy to grow protected

Not my labour go in vain - hate me not

For enjoyment of bringing up to make

With no risk; same mode better way

Thinking deep now I found it is dread

He would never be the same like me

World around is too different and can't

Ever make a boy like me could survive

Plan broke sooner than it was made

Brave me not for another one like me

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Accident added another story ------------(150705)---------

I drove down on the road to Naduvil
Had a crossing bus at Nadukani curve
Speedy jeep faced me following bus 
I saw the blue and red glow spark
It was a sure hit and drag to death
would have taken me to electric post

A spec of moment I was out of world
All memories on moments blank
Flashed lights of life and dark death
How to make sense of it all in lost

Learned where I am; when stopped
I saw brother’s son and daughter all safe in place not hurt bad and live
No devastated feel on any face too

Front Glass of Car broke in head hit
My brother’s head had no injury, safe
All well and we stood as no matter
Tried to drive the car back to road

The car I drove many roads denied
Sunk in mud deep both left wheels
Sure would jammed in mud and grass
Helped pass by to lift it up on road

No way could drive as stuck blocked
The car mechanic is now on work
I heard my brother discussing this tragic event as a safe escape around

I love his kindness to me, not blaming
He said I saved without hurt on any
I don't know it is true, but I said sorry
As it is me who drove it to accident

It is the good three souls who prayed
Prayers of many on all these four life
The unknown rescuer plied his role
Dragged me to drive for hit and stop

Seen my mother who gave life to me
Lying lifeless and still, hardly father
All my siblings have moved on to life
Little me selfishly lived my gifted life

Thanking all for my best life so far
I wished staying at native not to miss
Reflect on the prayers I had from all
Laughing on memories until I cry

I am sure God wouldn't end it soon
Will allow me to give this story added
When I drive on this road always next
Leading to Jnaanam for another event

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Grey Time Quest ---(150703)---

I scrubbing my beard sat alone
Thinking on grey hair took me back
Grey is not alone the cover on head
I never thought age will make me smart

What keeps me busy and tight now
Did I make my choice wrong, I quest
I can't stop my love on my native 
I had enough time with many offices

Quite alone the quest for learning
Quest on sharing, caring and love
Love for life is with love for others
Wish the days ahead be in bliss

Black to White is through Gray ahead
As life gets cool from dark to bright
Creative life of ageless self-motive
Wished thoughts of limitless quest

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I Wish I don't wish (150702)

In whole village without boundaries
I was roaming carefree as a little boy
Until it was time for food never cared
None asked to be in home anytime

Games and work was one with cow-
Feeding in farm and field on task
Always busy smiling cool and felt high
All changed just over a curtain drama

All happy faces are grown wrinkled
Down with life and burdened family
I searched around a smiling friend
I know none dare to share feelings

They used to share-care all around
Now none understands each other too
Feeling lonely hurts deep inside empty
Wish the old cheerful face comes-back

You cry hugging yourself or the pillow
Sharing grief within wishing to care
Holding through the day and night
Memories that kills my today is worse

I wish I had no dreams or thoughts
I wish I am brave and free of thoughts
I know I can be free as I was young
Despite my social thoughts scared nil

Why should I fill life with thoughts
Wish had only hopes of future fill-in
Wishing for happy and carefree life
That cools thoughts for being in bliss

Having wish is the trouble bringing
Carefree life may have pain and grief
Never bothered on ahead and past
Never to wish is the wish I carry now

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