Need Giver - Not Taker :: Always Beside

Need Giver - Not Taker :: Always Beside
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I locked my dreams and actions
In my doomed thoughts and laziness
I have everyone to feel I have none
I want all to feel I am with them

I wanted me to shut in my own self
Inside my mind and heart locked in
At times I love to leave me like this
As i know I am enjoying being myself

Practical world demanded life
Reality blocked normal casual life
Solitude was to say life is okay
Against reservations I acted smart

Breathless was life when I said
'I am enjoying'; I was lying blend
I wish someone to hold my hands
Realizing that life is not so good

Though lazy; my thoughts are dazy
Burning my thoughts; always crazy
I am out; only on the feel; I am behind
Left far behind in life unsafe-unheard

Protected love costing themselves
Neither the lover nor you is happy
You will be left behind alone unloved
Love is not costlier than lovers ever

We need givers beside us always
We see only takers around mostly
Dont walk away from life; I need you
Race me and damage me if u need

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I wish I write No Poems

I wish I write No Poems

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Gandhari asked for sadness

To meet Lord Krishna in grief

Likewise may be I need lifeless

Dark cloudy mood for poems

Life is a mask that hides me

Consumes me; eats away

My life is an unending fear

Swallowing my spare time

Hide self in mood at times

Tears, I know; will rain out

Journey of restless struggles

stays the manas active smart

Alone when no activity around

Manas swirls-swells with poems

Manas is the darkest deepest

Place to hide and get lost into

psychological blows brings out

To creep up nice poems of grief

Subconscious manas draw hell

Past karma - lost effort blames

I wish and write LIFE is enjoying

Learn-care-share-live-love-spare

I wish wonder days ahead

To take my mask off

Impossible task is to show light

On these poems; I shall wait long

I see someone who promises 

Saying your poem is good

Calling some one bright 

It is not to say self is stupid

When you call the other cute

It doesn’t mean that you are ugly

Some ones is in depression

Doesn’t make you in bliss

I shall wait; wonder a near day, 

I may be able to get out of mask

I love Rainbow poems; though 

I write only poems with dark cloud

Only when it is moody and dark

No shine sparks poems in me

I shall fill my day celebrating

cheerful around; no more poem

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Deserve and Reserve -------(((150830)))-------

Deserve and Reserve

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Softening anger deserves pain

Poetry flows without reservation
Rhyming feels through minds
Innovation is beyond invention

Breathe demands air

More deserving lungs

Tightly I bind myself

Meditative slow breath

Flows life without reservation

Towards a deserving death

It is time to reflect on desire

Dream to Goal into Action

You got trapped in me without a key

Learning to learn through my heart

You loved pretending going away

Wishing and wanting to hold close

Motivated youth against deserving

Pouring hard work towards achieving

I have no reservation in pouring love

Those who deserve to get reflected

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Lost you forever ((((--150820--))))

Lost you forever

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Life has to move

All the usual ways

Pain fly over head

Unexplainable thoughts

Beside me he was alive

But today remains dead

Well dead - how to console

In my heart and thoughts

I pretended as if no feelings

Not much to give and take

Days that were disturbing

Sheltered together at Jnaanam

Desire and dreams built around

Sure known can't take life along

Returning to the parking

Fly to the nest with pair

Felt lost but had a hope

A day again back in den

Beside me you lived always

When you said 'I am with you'

Now when you remain dead

No remain; and feeling lost

I feel lost being alone with all around

Over my peg of whiskey and rest after

Had no feeling of meeting you that day

Now lost you forever; want you ever

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Death to Memory -----(((150819)))----

Death to Memory

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View blinked down as lost vision

Center of eye too had insane look

Closed or open - eye seen unmoved

Teeth grinning silent without feelings

Breathing was unaware of lungs

Quickly left control on medical kit

No haste said doctors; expressionless

Waited for the respiration to stop

Slept in between death and life

Story of life; kid to old age in thoughts

Glimpses of love and loss slashed

Smiled away memories around

Untiringly steps in death

Lightly flew-out feathery the life

Time to give off everything

There was a deep loss instantly

Lost on the way for the left ones

Affectionate wept and slept

Words of condolence dripped off

WhatsApp and FB messages flooded

Newspaper carried a small column

Scratch-less stayed on the next day

Cremation rituals spread its sheets

White wall memory on dark death

It is when together or alone for dears

Absence makes the memory live

What keeps stuck is the love shreds

Definite is death and indefinite is love

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Cherishable Moments in Oldage ------------------(150818)-----------------

Cherishable Moments in Old-age

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If we could cherish those incidents

Grab the moments from past days
Keep them live in the life ahead
not to cry over with reasoning

Practical and theoretical are not life

It is moments of feelings and love

Hard to hold on it for long though

Could cherish over it over again

Events of moments stay live always

Shaded memories too brush alive

Always not in finger tips or lips

But the feelings behind the love

Can't think or talk on matters of life

But can cherish and smile within

Moments that happened brings life

Realizes glimpse of them to cherish

Steal life from boring living days

That keeps selfish memories alive

Cherish of moments against worries

That is the credit in days of old-age

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RAIN AT JNAANAM --------(150813)----------

RAIN AT JNAANAM

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Jnaanam is not the dwelling around

It is all within the inmate's manas

The rain that dropped had a rhythm

Voice of rain drummed my thoughts

Night had the dance of rain in silence

I know rain only knows what I need

Watching the leaves dancing on beat

Rain gave a calmness in heart beat

Thirsty plants got filled its soil in rain

Love refreshed soul; soil is as my soul

We took bath in cold rain outside

Like diamond from sky rain dropped

Touching skin it rolled out magical

Rolled feelings in my heart called

Arms open wide collecting drops,

Shook it out to see it jets away

Drum beats feel added to rain sound

Rhythm of life made it musical love

I admire and adore rain;

My soul want it; to live ahead

I feel to live longer; refreshing

In this soil; that quench my soul

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Dream Portfolio --- 150806 ---

Dream Portfolio

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Dream Portfolio

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Kingdom is my body

My rule are my brain
Success is my manas
Acceptance is my pain

salvation from senses

Invaded other kingdom

Celebrated success

Justified my rules on you

You the trapped kingdom

Justified my success

You accept the joined rules

Celebrate the surrender

You maintained the boundaries

Curves and edges of my kingdom

Until the people around agree

Unbrush to face the portrait

Prayers of the subjects

Indriyas in queue loved

Unscrap the canvas alone

New subjects appeared in paint

My lost brush and paint

Encroached some land

I stood confused unfinished

Heartfelt portrait on canvas

Now the painter went back

Unable to paint in lost manas

Provoked on the invade

Kept the self portrait painted

Paint faded before it ended

Brush dropped and sat aside

Left the canvas unfinished

Finally indicated the lost subject

Overcrowded subjects and kingdoms

Lost my Destination for something

Likewise most people were in fix

Looked for experienced team around

When all lost and found helpless

Created a great dream portfolio

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Ĺive In Fully Etternal ---------150806----------

Live In Fully Eternal

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Harsh winter

Strange Spring
Wetting Summer
All the ways worst
sky shows sign of death,

I waited for one season to go

As the next one reached I prayed same

Made not my mood up

Either the frost or the dew

No flower remind me in smile

No silence nor songs made my day

Mother taught me

Keep the mood still

When the season changes

Say yourself "it all doesn’t matter"

My guru taught me

"POORNE MANASI SAMPOORNAM.."

It is all in your manas (mood)

Violence to silence is samadhi

Eight steps in ashtanga yoga

It is all the way you train self

Love or hate

Too late or early

Wake up a new day

To say does this matter

Don’t get into the details

Look from far and feel cool

Unpredictable is the span of life

All that arises and dims thus is fake

Change your life with mood

Mood that brightens the moment

Bliss is wiser and smooth

LIFE is Live In Fully Eternal

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Flower Petels - Flower Petels ---- ((150803)) ---

Flower Petals - Flower Petals

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God made the flowers glow

Against the green pansies
all well coloured in bright
Sunshine strengthen glow

Wind and rainfall kept the bud

Waited for the sun to bloom

Stayed strong a day in fragrance

Freshens up the thoughts of all

The deep dark blooms the white

Only contrast that made it live

Perfumed the world around

Blissful they stay though short

Petals each are not fully leaf

Modified brightly coloured leaves

Corolla that fills flower dreams

Soft yet facing short hardships

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Death-Bed Dreams ☆---《150803》---☆

Death-Bed Dreams

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Sitting on the thick-hard armchair

Soft bright lightened poems born

Papers would have not spared space
but I opted laptop to phone to write

Cleared the spellings and usage

Backspace overused unsatisfied

Floor cleaner smelled the hospital

Thin light in rooms gave a gloom

Eye-lids closed and opened as the

Clicks of the clock stepped by step

Days on days passes as life turned

All that was in blooms had its fall

Burning death fear awakened me

Until the dark night gave way to sun

Staring at the floor pattern I drew

Dream of life to death in idle alone

Cramped hands unable to move

Gave no key-board option to write

Waited someone to pen my words

Who loves to read my poems alone?

All alone these days I stayed in room

Old fan made my room not in silence

Tongue made no food request as ever

Belly flame asked to flame the stove

Fever is in and it tried brushing out

The chill body became uneven hot

Perfect I must stay ahead for show

Class must go on else I will be alone

Illness and pain is not the issue

How and why I am around useless

The days ahead too is waste of time

Let my story be ended soon for good

Fever fix in me with chest heavy

Dried lips offering lightest thoughts

The soft one that gave cold against

The heated skin around the neck

It's me filled on this chair on laptop

My dream and my poem unearthed

I need space to end before it started

It must live for my dream students

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